Consider this a belated Christmas present Dark Perks. 
I also sent off the latest chapter of 'Dancing on the
Edge' to be beta read.  So you'll also get that soon. 
O.K.  I know the majority of us hate 'Last Knight' for
obvious reasons.  O.K.  I don't hate it; it's actually
good angst.  Except the ending was all wrong.  Anyway,
it's a great episode to fix.  But I'm not going to in
this short fic.  I had a thought.  What if 'Last
Knight' went the way it did because Tracy wanted it
that way?  I can hear you all going 'Say what?'<eDPg>
Read the fic and you'll see what I'm getting at.  I
would dearly love feedback.  
I don't own Tracy or anything related to Forever
Knight but if I did I'd probably insert myself into
the story just because I could. <eDPg>
 
Major spoilers for 'Last Knight' obviously and also
'Avenging Angel' And a minor one for 'Ashes to Ashes.'
 
 
When the bullet hit me all I felt was shock.  And
pressure.  I couldn't believe I'd actually gotten
shot.  I mean, I know I'm a cop and there's always
that risk but I guess I'm like most people; I never
thought it could happen to me.  Except it did.  
 
By the time the force of the bullet slammed me up
against the wall I was feeling the pain.  God, I hurt.
And not just physical pain either.  Finding out Nick
was a vampire that way hurt me emotionally.  'You
could have trusted me' was the last thing I said to
him before blacking out.  
 
I felt so angry and betrayed.  I was only trying to
back up my partner and protect him.  Who knew he
hadn't needed it?  I sure as hell didn't.  
 
So when I was faced with a choice of going into the
light or staying I chose going.  Yeah, I knew it meant
dying but so what?  Who would really care if I died?  
 
My parents were too wrapped up in their own deal and
my brothers had lives and families of their own.  My
friends.  What friends?  I didn't have any left. 
They'd all either left me or betrayed me in some way. 
So there was really nothing for me to stay for.
 
God, was I wrong?  I'd had no idea my death was going
to impact everyone the way it had.  After everything
went black I awoke in a void with the light waiting
and I made my choice. But it was the wrong one.  
 
Because after I stepped into the light I saw
everything.  I saw Nat get the call and rush over to
tell Nick.  I saw how devastated they both were.  I
saw him drain her.  I heard LaCroix talking to Nick
and I heard Nick ask him to stake him.  So Vachon had
lied to me too.  LaCroix was a vampire.
 
But that's not important right now.  Because then I
saw LaCroix stake Nick.  Because of me?  Did my death
devastate them that badly?  
 
I know it did my family.  God, help me I was wrong
about that too.  Mom kept it together at the funeral
and then lost herself in an alcoholic haze.  The last
time I saw her I had hope that she'd stay on the
wagon.  I guess my death hit her hard.  My brothers
and their families couldn't stop crying.  Dad didn't
cry at the funeral.  He waited until he got home and
then he lost it.  
 
I didn't know.  I was wrong.  I've changed my mind.  I
don't want to be dead.  I want to live.  I want to go
back to my life.  I want to work things out with my
parents and Nick.  Please give me another chance.  I
want to be alive again.  
 
 
                                         The End