I see myself drowning
In the deepest hollows
Of the darkest forest
In the midnight sky
Thinking of you
I wonder with delight
If he really loves me
Then why must I be tortured?
I give myself to you
I give of my soul
I give of my blood
I give of my flesh
For you to take
With all of your power
Cuts deep within
My wicked heart of ice
Take of my sorrows
Take of my pain
Take of my fear
Take all within
For you my lord
I give you everything
My soul, my heart
It now belongs to you
In all light of darkness
I seek to find
My only true love
He is one of the darkest kind
I can't help but feel
He is the only one for me
My soul he would steal
In return his life I shall take
To return pure love
Is something I cannot do
I love him so much
Is his darkness really true?
With everything gone
Futuristic sight lost
As I see hope in the distance
New prey to hunt down
The chase exciting
The hunt electrifying
Loves rules forgotten
Go wild with instinct
Immoral reflections
Slithering atop the water
Slip into the dark depths
Of the fantasy cavern
Melting into you
Erotic thoughts begin to dance
As I move to the sound of the rhythm
Calling me as I tear him apart
Blood dripping from my victim
I lick it all away
Seductively I crawl on top of him
And take him away to exstasy
If to love is to hurt
Then to hate is to heal
For our love is no more
But darkness is what I feel
For darkness is where I live
The light is fading fast
Know not what I hear
But feel what I see
The past is now present
Though the present is becoming past
The hauntings are more intense
And the sadness will forever last
Life is not what we see
Nor death is what we feel
There is no more light
So we must die in the shadows
Of who we are and what we were
Sometimes I feel I don't belong
In my world I fell out of place
Forgotten who I am
I will never die free
I just want to sleep
Just slash it all away
Forget all fears
My illusional fears
My fear surrounds me
Taking hold it won't let go
Dragging me down
Through the allegiance
Grab the trees
Try to hold on
Don't let go
Set me free
Wake up to see the sky
The colors are hitting me
Like flying paint
Shooting through my head
I don't this
Take it away
I don't want this
Take it all away
Thought I knew him
Guess I shouldn't have believed
Wish I knew then
That he would deceive
Betrayed like a fool
I wore his liars crown
Didn't know he could be so cruel
Clueless I didn't make a sound
Falling for him as I slip away
Had no clue what I was in for
Treachery in my arms I lay
Washed up on the shore
Thoughts come alive
While dreams may die
In my world I survive
Forever I shall cry
Dream dimensions
Thoughts form
Mirrored reflections
A thundering storm
The fiery winds
The sun of darkness
For I shall live in eternal sin
And the clouds play the ultimate seductress
Dreams are a mystery
Stars in their patterns
The sands shift clearly
And reality becomes shattered
Why does fire burn?
Maybe cause love does hurt
One more wrong turn (I've made)
Now I'm drowning in liquid dirt
I'm becoming a time bomb
Waiting to explode
Tick Tock Tick Tock
BOOM one less child to hold
Suicide what a wonderful thing
Death is the only adventure in life
What less chaos I'll bring
Damn I hope it's my time
In this pool of blood I lay
No one will ever know
Where my soul will forever stay
I wish I could have done more to show
How much I love you
Goodbye forever
What is it like to die?
To jump off a cliff, hit the ground
And die off deadly blood loss
What is it like to die and be found?
If this is what life is like
The I know I must drown
In a pool of blood, laying there dead
Dead on the ground
High up on a cliff
Look straight down
Listen to the wind shift
Jump, hit, die and be found
Dead, calm and sound
I will always wonder
If I made the right choice
If I had to do it all over again
Would I listen to the same voice?
This pain I hide
No one knows
Cursed at my side
Only to one it shows
Time has passed away
The tears I have shed
Outside the gates she lay
In a grave she is dead
The one everyone knew
Has passed on
Her life only true
Lost again she is gone
The person I used to know
Astray I've been led
In a grave so low
I am not me, I am dead
Mornings rain
Sunshines fate
Devils drain
People hate
Life all gone
Suicide won
The drugs Im on
Hell is the one
Death so great
Darkness shades
I'm his bait
Dig in the blades
Blood run down
Color I pale
In dirt I drown
For Hell I sail
Another suicide
One more story
On his side
The devils glory
As the clouds drift away
Off into the night
I somehow walk astray
I feel the darkening of the light
There's nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
I'm running from
The secret I keep inside
Scared someone will know
What I'm hiding for
The secret I fear shows
Burning in my core
I don't know where to run
Hope I'll be there soon
Don't know what to do
Just follow the light of the moon
Falling through this vortex
I'm drowning in a pool of hatred
With nothing to live for
I reside in my world of fear
Trapped in my room
My purple room of darkness
Nowhere to go that I can see
Forever to never fly free
My parallel universe
Comes tumbling down
The walls come crashing in
My life I cannot repair
Time does not exist here
But the apathetic sadness
Stays till eternity ending in
Excess thoughts of suicide
You can't hide
No one can hide from it
It controls me
It controls you
When you look around
All you see is death
In all worlds abound
One line of meth
Sometimes in me
Life seems a dream
For us to go free
Triping fucking clean
Living in a hole
Trapped in mud
Light a bowl
Controlled by bud
Psychedelic rails
Beyond all consciousness
Dead by rusted nails
He will confess
Bottled up
Tainted stress
Thoughts from above
I'm cryin in pain
Break the glass
Sick of this hell
Slash the flesh
Here is the anger in me
My demented mind
Sadness from within
Tears in the heart
I'm dyin in shame
I feel the needle
Piercing through my skin
I'm breaking down
I'm burning out
Break the glass
Sick of this hell
Slash the flesh
Here is the anger in me
As I walk beneath the stars
Light from the moon intense
I think of you from afar
My love for you immense
Drowning in your memories
Blood shot screams
Dark as night sceneries
Feel you deep in my dreams
Tear drop on a black rose
Beneath the darkening of time
Wickedness you have chose
Surrender to me punishment for your crime
Together we become twisted
Psychotic minds for all to see
Evil thoughts demented
You and me roam free
I'm lost within myself
My soul wanders about
Inside this perilous body
Shouting in fear
Of who I am
Dreaming as I float
In the vastness of the universe
Who are we and where did we come from?
Who created us and did we also create him?
I've been taken back in life
Whispers of the past
Come back to haunt the tortured one
Alone in her world
Alone in this world
Life is only a dream
Death is when we wake up
Staining our only consciousness
With their beliefs and time
Who are we to judge?
The time is now to rebel
Against this controlling society
Come we must to break their conspiracy
In the shadows we hide
Of the trees in the darkened forest
They are talking, whispers and whistles
Oh how they speak
In a language unfamiliar
Silence is so desolate
He is the one who took my heart
Can I take his?
I fell in love with him
I've known it from the start
Love is so painful
So tell me this
If I love him so much
Why can't I give him just one little kiss?
Why won't he love me?
Can this be true love?
Or is this just lust?
A question must remain a mystery
How could he have changed so much?
In these past 2 years
I just can't help
Shed these tears
Now that I must die
I give you my heart
Can't you love me?
Can't you just try?
Give me one more chance
This time I won't let you down
Somewhere in this colorful trance
My love for you is starting to drown
Even though I walk through this dark
Valley of the shadow of death
I'm still forever depressed
A lie is something that can kill
The heart and soul of a person
To be lied to kills
The trust and ends a mistake
No one can trust
Everything hurts
The broken love
Everyone lies
A sad truth
That will never rest
In peace we wish to live
No more is such a word we call trust
Sadness grows slowly
Within my emptiness
Shadowed rain falls coldly
War creates my demise
Falsely accused
Of raping life of its soul
Convicted in this prison
Sobriety has taken its toll
Stained on the path
Sanity is far beyond reach
Living with desolate memories
Nobody can teach
Creating my own hell
Darkness shades the torture
My sins I need to sell
Waiting for the aftermath
Life is something so strange
To live in a world of no peace
Everywhere you look
Death will never cease
How can we live
In a world of fear
No more thoughts
Come closer my dear
Of all the ways to die
Why death from above?
Sin after sin
One more push to shove
Come to me
End my sorrow
Fall into the shadows
Tell no more, all for tomorrow
We rape this planet
Of her naturalities
Nobody sees what's going on
Ourselves come to please
She gives us life
Nurturing with her water
Torture, she bares the pain
Destruction we have brought her
Natural causes we can't control
Meteors, storms, earthquakes and more
Twisting, turning her waves of rage
Fury burning in her core
Kids killing each other
Locd out ganstas
Strapped for death
Bang Bang Bang, capped your ass
Guess I ain't got your back
Born into the grave
Running the wrong way
The only life you knew
Bangin's killed you dead
Brothers they were
On the same side
Till they turn on you
And then you die
Now your dead
They don't look back
Onto the killing field
No remorse for the lives they took
Time stains everything
Big or small
I can't believe what I see
This world full of broken thoughts
Our government is run by corrupted minds
Turning the country to shit
Hope remains their biggest fear
Freedom is for the dead
We fight for our lives
This war will never end
Until they die
We shall gain our rights back
Take what we must
But don't give into their temptation
Our will is our only weapon
Break them, Whiteout
Governments hiding secrets
Lost society should know
Nighttime horrors
Produce our fears
Listen they do not
How can we go on
Accepting their apathy
When we don't even care about ourselves
Looking down on us
Comming to kill us all
Anarchy starting wars
Chaotic thoughts fill their heads
Lives are shattered
But nobody looks back
To see the ruins
Of the empire they built for us
Minds fall to corruption
Stupid politicians they are
Controlling our lives
Free we shall be
So get up off your fucking ass
Listen and learn motherfucker
Things are beyond our control
And you just don't give a fucking damn
You confine and judge us
Destruction you create
Hidden in the shadows
Money and power makes you blind
Out of the clouds
Breathtaking hell
Looking down at you
Open up I'm falling in
Come with me
You shall see
The dark place
That you fear
The heart you knew
Is no longer there
Your soul you owned
I have taken and enslaved
You have no will
To my power
You will submit
I own you, my dark child
Lonliness is shadowing me
Feelings of love come to return
Shattering what used to be
This heart of black steel
Holding you in my arms
Seems to be right
Don't let go of me
As my will decays
Broken in two
I need you more and more
Torn in between
Happiness and love
Never alone
Always alone
Never die
Always cry
Drift off sail away time doesn't exist people don't exist just souls lost souls don't know where to go just left behind a world of rejection into a world of acceptance perfect utopia lightning souls thundering through to find themselves the quest for self identity long and tedious yet no one knows illuminating purple and black flashing souls take flight into the rip in time and space left apathy behind for the tears to roll away into the dark recesses of memory walking through the valley of the shadow of rape and despair to fear reality never awake from this coma water falls from the sky clouds cover light day turns into night stars stream around the moon disappear with the rest of the world lose yourself and live in mirrored reflections which has faded away into the shadows painted smiles make it all better fall away far away and never return escape from reality faith takes you away only in a place a place called Mysteria welcome to my world are your instincts alive? Can you survive? Come to eternity
